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I am really distressed. I suffer from GAD and I am feeling out of control!!



I had gone to visit a friend for a few Christmas eve drinks. I was telling her about my family's intention to move to a new state at the end of next year. My hubby is in the Military and our turn to move is coming up. Out of nowhere she tells me that she has received a message and it was a warning to me. She claims she receives "messages" paranormally, and she has visions. She tells me that my hubbys younger… Continue

I am amazed at what has happened over the past few months. I am ashamed to say I fell of the wagon and in my own self destructive little world, closed the doors to the weight loss idea and resumed my normal downward spiral of self loath and self pity.



I felt I had not only let myself down but those around me who were there to support me and keep me on track. Well I came to a new reality. I really want this!



I weighed in at 80 kilos yesterday.



I have lived too… Continue

On your hands can leads to one's own self destruction.

I hurt my back while picking up a sock. Hard to believe that something so simple can put you on your butt for a few days. Anyway as I was trying to recoup, I did a lot of thinking.



My weight loss journey is still going ok, that is a plus. My problem is my other goal in life is looking out of reach. I have always wanted to be a nurse. I have even attempted it a couple of times, but with moving around due to my hubby's job and… Continue

I was doing so well too. I have finally gotten my head into this exercise regime and was doing so good. I attempted a 1k run tonight with my son. We were doing a 4.5 walk and he said “Lets run the last 1k”. So hyped and ready to go, I grinned and said “ok”



Maybe it was the belief that I have superpowers and off I jogged. I was puffing and panting, the whole time thinking I am going pass out. But I hung in there.



I could see my house rounding the corner. I smiled and… Continue

And some are stone. Why is it that I feel like I am in between a rock and a hard place at times. I get motivated and then it all goes downhill. I feel like a mouse in maze, trying to find the right regime, the right time, the right miracle that will keep me focused. I am back up to 88 kilos. I had got down to 85 but I guess I just let the festive season get the better of me.



Some days I feel like I can conquer the world and others I feel like I am all alone in this and hate it.… Continue