Yesterday started well until...

I had bran cereal and skimmed milk for breakfast. Went to the gym. Good workout. Had grilled chicken and a salad for lunch. No soda, just water. Was full, no hunger pangs, nothing. Had dhal, rice and saltfish for dinner, not much, just enough to feel full. Lots of water throughtout the day. Sounds liek a good start.

But then, along came fried chicken and fries and soft drink and guess what I do? Do I say, no thanks, I'm full? Do I think of the wonderful day I had so far and pride myself on my will to see things through? Nope, I grabbed a plate and there I was, pigging out.

And even as I eat it I wonder what the heck is really wrong with me that it seems unthinkable to say no now, even though I had the same options at lunch and I made the healthy choice at lunch but cant do it now? And even as I'm thinking this, why am I reaching for that second piece of chicken?

I wonder whats the payoff for sabotaging myself like this. I KNOW how hard I worked at the gym that morning, I KNOW the changes I need to make to become heathy and I KNOW why I need to be. Yet there seems to be a disconnect between KNOWING it, and translating that to choices and action. Strange...

Today on the other hand, was excellent. I was in the gym in the morning, them walked at the park this afternoon and aside from cereal this morning, I had no carbs today. I loaded up on lean meat and veggies and I feel quite proud of myself.

Lets hope tomorrow is even better.