Feeling Out Of Control
I am really distressed. I suffer from GAD and I am feeling out of control!!
I had gone to visit a friend for a few Christmas eve drinks. I was telling her about my family's intention to move to a new state at the end of next year. My hubby is in the Military and our turn to move is coming up. Out of nowhere she tells me that she has received a message and it was a warning to me. She claims she receives "messages" paranormally, and she has visions. She tells me that my hubbys younger son, who is 19 and who my hubby has not seen in almost 7 years, is out to get me!!! She tells me that he is going to kill me and that I need to take her warning seriously and never be alone with this young man. She tells me that she sees him killing me out of anger as he blames me for his mum and my hubby breaking up. She claims he is very angry and harbors an extreme amount of hatred towards me because of what his mother has been telling him. His mother, my hubbys ex wife, is very angry still and very volatile towards us and she believes that he is going to take revenge out for his mother upon me. Now having said this, I did tell her about 3 months ago of my concern for this lad as my hubbys eldest son had called and mentioned that AJ ( son who is meant to kill me) was angry towards me and felt he needed to take out revenge on me for his mother as he blames me for their breakup. So she already had this information but claims that she had received this message before I told her this.
I have been crying and trying to make sense of all this. This woman has been known to cause trouble here and there and I am not sure if she is playing with my head or if she is truly serious. If she is serious, why the hell would she come out and tell me in that way. This has done nothing but scare the hell out of me to the point I cannot sleep or think straight. I am now scared to move, I watch my back and I am even getting to the point of breaking my relationship up with my husband to prevent any harm to myself or family.
I have a fear of death, which she knew nothing about, so as you can imagine having this fear and being told you are going to die a horrible death has just manifested this fear so much that I cannot function properly!
I did try and talk to her over this to explain to her that what she had said has made my life basically a living hell and I do not want anything to do with her. She declined She has now turned it around back onto me and is telling people that she is going to make my life hell at the University we both attend due to the fact that I came across as a nutter because I flipped out, when she was just trying to be a friend and warn me.
I cannot think straight and I am usually a level headed person who can sit down and work things out. Right now I am a mess.
I had gone to visit a friend for a few Christmas eve drinks. I was telling her about my family's intention to move to a new state at the end of next year. My hubby is in the Military and our turn to move is coming up. Out of nowhere she tells me that she has received a message and it was a warning to me. She claims she receives "messages" paranormally, and she has visions. She tells me that my hubbys younger son, who is 19 and who my hubby has not seen in almost 7 years, is out to get me!!! She tells me that he is going to kill me and that I need to take her warning seriously and never be alone with this young man. She tells me that she sees him killing me out of anger as he blames me for his mum and my hubby breaking up. She claims he is very angry and harbors an extreme amount of hatred towards me because of what his mother has been telling him. His mother, my hubbys ex wife, is very angry still and very volatile towards us and she believes that he is going to take revenge out for his mother upon me. Now having said this, I did tell her about 3 months ago of my concern for this lad as my hubbys eldest son had called and mentioned that AJ ( son who is meant to kill me) was angry towards me and felt he needed to take out revenge on me for his mother as he blames me for their breakup. So she already had this information but claims that she had received this message before I told her this.
I have been crying and trying to make sense of all this. This woman has been known to cause trouble here and there and I am not sure if she is playing with my head or if she is truly serious. If she is serious, why the hell would she come out and tell me in that way. This has done nothing but scare the hell out of me to the point I cannot sleep or think straight. I am now scared to move, I watch my back and I am even getting to the point of breaking my relationship up with my husband to prevent any harm to myself or family.
I have a fear of death, which she knew nothing about, so as you can imagine having this fear and being told you are going to die a horrible death has just manifested this fear so much that I cannot function properly!
I did try and talk to her over this to explain to her that what she had said has made my life basically a living hell and I do not want anything to do with her. She declined She has now turned it around back onto me and is telling people that she is going to make my life hell at the University we both attend due to the fact that I came across as a nutter because I flipped out, when she was just trying to be a friend and warn me.
I cannot think straight and I am usually a level headed person who can sit down and work things out. Right now I am a mess.
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